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Sweet Sour OR Bitter Sweet?

Life is yet another place where we live and enjoy life, but of course, there are some limitations or rather obstacles that make us not capable to enjoy life to its fullest. We are human beings; born at a point and one thing we are sure and certain about in this life is that we will die at some point later on. Due to this, we are limited in knowledge and experiences. And We us to realise this limitation is very hard as we are known to be the best creatures in this universe, but luckily there's a way to discover this limitation is when you encounter a problem where you go through all the encyclopedias & dictionnaries of life & love but you return empty-handed with no solution or answers. Today I've decided to blog because I'm fighting with myself from within. It is easy to fight with someone else where you can burst out your anger, sorrows and frustrations out to him but it is a nightmare when you are fighting with yourself as you always end up being more frustrated.

These past two weeks were very troublesome in aspects of loneliness and my addiction to coffee.. **Smirk**.. I've not been lonely in life as I've always surrounded myself with my desires and fantasies even though I'm not that much of a social animal. But as we know, there is a limit to everything, even chasing dreams and desires. There is a point where we can not take it anymore and we just have to cut it off or you will just burst out hurting yourself and other people who care about you.

I've not quite finished with the emotional part of these two weeks but sometimes, emotions are better kept inside rather that being said as it can create more damages if told. Hence let's move on to the sarcastical fun part of my alter ego =). Let us focus on the fun part, as life isn't not about complaining or whatsoever, it is about enjoying and fullfilling your own responsibilites towards yourself and the society. I've tried to do so these past two weeks. Thanks to my friends from ISD, I've enjoyed my eid a bit, it was fun having pictures taken with a cue stick sticked into an unaware guy's ass or trying to be noob in pool when you are actually pro or when one of my country mate faking a piss in the water jet in front of everybody and trust me, it was very awkward but worth it! Hats off to that friend.

Moreover I've spoke to someone who really stirred the wild part of myself out but God knows best that only second more, I'll be running out like a lion who fasted for a very very long time. Oh what type of meat available, I'll just gulf them down but God blessings, the phoned died out of batteries :) What a twist of fate...it comes to tease you and when you are warming up, it just leaves you out there hanging out like a cold turkey!

Guys how much we try to blame our griefs and sorrows on fate; destiny but in fact for real, we are to be blamed as we are just not trying hard enough. We are not strong enough to stand up on our own feet, we are not strong enough to create our own world of happiness, we are not strong enough to create our own luck & we are not able to influence our own destiny. What is wrong with us?

What is wrong with us is that we are afraid of getting the wild, afraid of jumping into the unknowing, where each our own step can either lead us to our loss & our gain.. Now are we ready to take this risk or not? What will be waiting for us at the end of the tunnel?

So what Say? Sweet? Sour? Bitter? Let's go find out,,,


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