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Emptiness

 “Courageous - that’s how you see me; Successfull - that’s how you belive in me; happy - that’s what you expect of me; But...Emptiness - that’s what is inside of me.”

I don't know how common this is, but for me, the main problem is that I feel
disconnected from everyone and everything.




I have a few people out there who I care about, or who care about me, but no real
intimacy with anyone. Worse yet, this is a long term pattern with me, it's been going on
for enough years yet that it's quite possible I will be alone for the rest of my life.



This totally sucks.


I would like to have friends I could be truly close to, someone that I could be in love
with, but I'm psychologically fucked up enough that I don't know how to make this
happen.


I like to think that if I had love and intimacy in my life, life wouldn't suck nearly as much.


And hell, I think I've reached the point where I'm jealous of cult members. Those poor
deluded fuckers who shave their heads and dance around in public begging for
donations, or the heaven's gate suicide cult, at least they have a sense of purpose, of
belonging. They must have a sense of devotion for their beloved cult leaders.

QUESTION TO REFLECT ON: 


Is there any way to have meaning in your life when you're disconnected from everyone?

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